Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Hindsight is 20/20

How in the world is it already Tuesday?  I missed two days of intended blogging because things just got unusually busy around here!  I had several moments where I thought, "Ooh, I'll have to write about that tonight!" but now I couldn't tell you what "that" was to save my life.  :)
Blame it on mommy-brain.

So this morning I made a dumb decision.  Coming off of a crazy-busy weekend and allergies that have taken me hostage I let myself sleep later than usual.  I was awakened by Katie padding into my room with a grin and climbing into my bed to grab a few more minutes of sleep.  I got up and dressed, and was soon joined my the rest of my cute crew.
The dumb decision?
I didn't have my alone-time with Jesus.
The morning got away from me and, before I knew it we were knee-deep in long division and phonics and I was E.M.P.T.Y.  I was unfocused and, therefore, so were the kids.  I was distracted and feeling the weight of my poor early-morning decision making and kicking myself mentally for thinking it would be no big deal to push Him aside.  I really should know better.  I do know better.
We got all of our school done, but not even close to "on time" because I was doing it all in my own strength.  I had not drank from the Fountain and was running on fumes.
Dumb, dumb, dumb.
I lived for many years "on fumes."  I rarely woke and went straight to the Word of God.  I would do it later in the day or at night before bed.  But in recent years He has shown me my utter dependence on Him...especially since we began homeschooling.  There is no morning rush to get the kids to school and then hours of alone time where I can go to a Bible Study or whatever.  I have to go to Him first, because once the morning is in full swing it doesn't stop til sundown.  I can't do it without Him.  There are too many decisions, too many things competing for my attention, to many heart-needs in my family for me to deal with in my own strength.  If I am not filled up by Jesus then I will not have an overflow to offer to my children and my husband.  I must crawl into His lap first thing every single morning.  I can't live victoriously or effectively without His hand holding me up and pushing me forward.

I am looking forward to Morning. The book of Nehemiah is my current focus, and it reads like a great novel.   The drama, the focus of Nehemiah on the task God set before him, and the well-placed pauses before the big picture is revealed (Read the end of Chapter 1 and see if you don't feel the intensity!)  Oh, the excitement of a well-placed revelation!

Coffee with Jesus...why, oh why, do I ever miss it?

1 comment:

  1. Thank you so much for the reminder/encouragement.
    - Another homeschool mama


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